I grew up wishing on a star.

26 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe announcement. yea. [07 Jun 2004|02:04pm] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | sittin with katie <3 ] I'm changing my livejournal name. I'm sick of people reading it that I don't want reading it. I don't want to make it friends only because then people that arent a livejournal member can't read my newest posts, and I don't want to make people sign up to see what I have to say. Therefore, I'm just making a new LJ name, and only putting my closest of friends on it. If I know you personally and youd like to be added, respond to this ASAP, because in a few days the new layout/name will be in effect. Thanks for your time and for reading.

faKe a smiLe [07 Jun 2004|08:25am] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | lalala jackie ] Yeah, that's right. I'm posting again, nukka. There's three full school days left for seniors until they're basically finished with high school. All I really need to do at this point to graduate is attend Gym and Environmental Science.. and maybe write a paper or two by Thursday. Wednesday is Senior Trip Day.. Friday is Senior Cut Day, and odds are I won't even make it here on Thursday. I'll be at the beach with a beer in my hand, because high school is over. I planned to write more in this, but I had to write a paper. Yeah, that's right. I was actually doing work. nukka. Jackie is reading this as I type it. She's reading out loud. It's annoying. I just got an 88 in Economics. Unacceptable. Death. Leaving now. bye.

3 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe [30 May 2004|02:44pm] The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight, and this is the moment that I live for. I can smell the ocean air. Here I am, pouring my heart onto these rooftops. Just a ghost to the world. That's exactly, exactly what I need. From up here the city lights burn like a thousand miles of fire, and I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day. For a second, I wish the tide would swallow every inch of this city as you gasp for air tonight. I'd scream this song right in your face if you were here. I swear I won't miss a beat, cause I never have before.

22 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe [20 May 2004|08:38am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | talking. ] I've decided that I'm going to post in this again, but not until somehow my background and everything looks good again. Right now my journal looks like shit, and I think that's why I'm never interested in posting in it. I want something with color.. like my old star background, but colorful. Unfortunately, I'm not good enough to do that, so this may be the last post for a long time. Also, I'm taking off all the friends (the ones that I don't know well) that don't reply to this entry within the next 2 weeks, just to see who actually reads what I write. Just respond and let me know you give a shit, and I'd be glad to keep you there, lol.. I have nothing new to write about, mainly because life is always the same in this town. Nothing ever really happens.. we run out of things to do, and then one person starts a fight or drama so that people have a new thing to talk about. I need to move away from here. One month until graduation. 21 days until yearbooks. It's all happening so fast. I still need to graduate. I need to write a science paper, two english papers, and make up 3 gyms. Somebody needs to get on my ass about that, or I'll probably never do it. I don't do anything with my weekdays, but somehow they're still lots of fun. I end up at the bar every night with Laura, Jenny, Eder, Kim, and Kelly.. and sometimes Deanna. No matter what I've done during the day, or what plans I've made, I always end up at the bar. It never gets old. Poor liver. My friends and I have also taken a liking to Ultimate Frisbee. It's the only sport I can play effectively without fucking up. Lots of fun. That is all for now. If anybody reads this and cares enough to want to read about me bitching some more, please let me know. You walk across the stage, take a bow, hear the applause, and as the curtains fall just know you did it all the best that you knew how, and you can hear them cheering now. ..I'm gonna miss high school.

1 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe [03 May 2004|10:24am] I'm in the computer lab.. I'm supposed to be taking a test right now, but with 8 weeks left before I graduate, I don't feel the need to take it right away. All I need to do to graduate is go to gym; I already have enough credits to graduate. School is now considered a joke, and my beach days are only a few days away. The last few days have been interesting. I've never been so blazed in all my life. Friday I partied at Danny's house, and ended up sleeping over there.. it was interesting from what I remember. I passed out at around 2am, and then Greg stole my phone and called a bunch of people, who became mad at "me" when it wasn't really me. Yeah, the last thing I needed was to be in a fight with Muskat and Corva, but I managed to pull that off, although I'm fine with Muskat now, and I'm almost fine with Corva as well.. Saturday, I woke up around 11 and ate the remains of the cold pizza we ordered the night before. Munchies. Then I went home around 2, chilled there for awhile, and headed back out to town to meet up with Deanna, Kristen, Foley, and some of the other sophmores. We hung around outside TCBY for awhile til it was about to rain, then Foley and Kristen headed to my house. We chilled there for about 20 minutes, then started walking to Foley's (yeah, all the way across town). That took us about 20-30 minutes, then Foley decided to steal her parents car and pick up the rest of the girls in town. I was shocked, she actually didn't crash or get caught, and everything went well. It took 15 minutes to get her car out of the driveway; she was nervous. We smoked in her backyard and drank in her basement, and then took a taxi back to town, where we drank some more. Christina and Nick came, and.. I don't really know what happened. Christina blamed me for things I had no idea about, but it blew over fast once I figured everything out. So.. I'm assuming I'm not in any real fights right now.. I hope I'm right. That's all for now, I have to take the test I was supposed to start 30 minutes ago. I'm promising myself I'll post in this more often. Somebody remind me.

5 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe [28 Apr 2004|01:55pm] I never post. Livejournals are seriously beginning to just bore me. Anything worthwhile that i'd like to put in a journal would have to be a private entry, because people would think i'm a fucking headcase. I refuse to make my Livejournal friends only because I like the fact that people that don't have accounts are able to read it too. I just can't win. Maybe I'll figure something out, if I learn enough XML/HTML to code this thing the way I'd want it. You all know I'll never get to that though. Anyway, the last few days have been relatively exciting. I take so much time in between each post that I actually forget what I did on certain days, but just rest assured it was lots of fun and probably involved alcohol.

8 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe letting out the *noise* inside of me.. [22 Apr 2004|08:32am] [ music | Straylight Run - It's For The Best ] Yeah, what now motherfuckers? Thu, 04/29/04 06:45 PM Yellowcard Roseland Ballroom New York, NY ..and I found a ticket. Holler! T-7 days, nikkas.

3 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe [21 Apr 2004|07:52am] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | fuckkk you. ] Every little thing that has ever gone wrong always seems to involve somebody I know, and somehow, it can always seem to be linked back to me. I'm convinced I'm a jinx or something. Get better soon Christina, I miss you and I love you soo much. Interesting week. Actually, I'm lying. I haven't done shit. Intermural softball practices have begun, and that is the only thing I've been looking forward to for the past week. We're awful, but we have fun. I just hope that Tina's able to come to the games when she returns. I think I'm ordering the shirts today, but I'm sure that everybody forgot to bring their money in today. Last night was hell. I wanted to visit Christina after I found out what went down, and my mom was bitching at me. I told her to shut the fuck up and she went nuts on me. I left the house, came home at 4am, slept for an hour, and then dragged my ass to school, or she told me she'd call the police on me. So, here I am, ready to die in the middle of Music and Literature. Put a bullet through my head. I'd nap now, but I have way too much shit to do. Michelle's 4 month was yesterday. Missing you now, loving you always.. it's not the same without you here. We saved you a spot on the team. :) Today is disgusting. It's cold and it's raining. All the more fun. I left my aderol at home and my mom is going to find it and call the cops. I'm about to smash my head through this monitor. bye.

2 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe i'll sing the words with a melody * and hope that you'll believe me [16 Apr 2004|08:41am] [ mood | emo ] [ music | In the school library, no music. ] Nothing much going on since my last post. My hopes of going to Skate and Surf are becoming less and less as today goes on. Katie called me with the train schedule last night, so I know exactly how I'd get there, but if I can't find a place to stay within the next 6 hours, I'm not going. I missed it last year for the same exat reason, and two years in a row is not a goal I'm aiming for. There's always a bright side though.. I'm friends with Kristen again, and nobody's fighting anymore. Therefore, the entire group can hang out together, which probably means that we'll end up drunk in town or something. That's what usually happens. Props to Schnopple, that's what it's all about. Last night I planned for Buntheads intermural softball 2004. I'm finally the captain of the team this year.. I've been on it since I was a freshman. Raquel and Kristen were the co-founders, and they're still attending all our games. I changed the team up a little bit though.. I decided I was going to cheat this year. The maximum amount of people allowed on a team is 20. There are currenly 33 members on our team. Only upperclassmen are allowed to play. Fifty percent of our team is sophmores. We'll probably still lose every game; we'll be too drunk to realize we're even playing softball. Much like last year, we're continuing our victory party tradition. Even when we lose, we're still winners in God's eyes, and that gives us a reason to drink after each and every game. Pounding beers on school nights is what it's all about. Many a hangover will occur the next morning for the sophmores that have to work their asses off in school. I can't wait to see it. The entire weekend is supposed to be sunny and warm. I'm thrilled. At least 60 degrees today, 70 for the weekend, and 75 on Monday. Definately cutting school on Monday and beaching it up, granted I find a ride. Oh well, I can always take the train to the beach like I ended up doing my sophmore year with Kristen and Raquel. That was definately my favorite day of that entire schoolyear. As I get closer to graduation, I can't help but reminesce on such a regular basis. I always think about how great high school was, and what a rude awakening college is going to be. I'm really wondering if I'll stay as close as I am now with my freshman and sophmore friends, and wonder if they'll still call and stuff once I'm not around their school. I'm going to be really closeby, but I hope people don't forget that I exist. I love the friends now, and I'm not looking for new ones. I don't like change, and I don't want to graduate. I wish I was 14 again, and I wish I could do it all over. I'm not ready to move on. I'm getting all emo now. I have to end this post before it gets worse.

12 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe my world * goes black [15 Apr 2004|08:24am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue ] I really don't feel like typing in this much.. but I will, because more people read it than I realized, and I feel the need to. My paid account is up, I have to renew it, but I'm currently much too poor.. I'm already paying 2 monthly fees on my debit card, and they closed my account for a month because I hit -23 dollars. Woot. The rest of Spring Break was.. eventful. I drank alot, as expected. Ohh.. the highlight of break.. Anna's mom walking in on us. I'll just leave it at that. I honestly didn't know what to say about it; I was pretty much in shock for the remainder of the night. I'm terrified to ever speak to her parents again, or to even step foot near her house. Oh well, maybe they won't hate me too much for corrupting her precious daughter. <3 In other news, as I believe I've already stated, the Denby situation is 100% over. What I didn't state is that a week after everything was over, Breanne Tempesta took it upon herself to write a livejournal entry on incredibly old news to respark everything that already happened and get people mad at me again. Her being the hypocrite she is, I've taken a page out of her book for once; I handed a copy of exactly what she wrote to administration. Have fun trying to not get suspended Breanne, that's what you get for trying to dick me over.. you have to have known it was going to catch up with you. Nothing much else has gone on. Skate and Surf is tomorrow, and to this day I'm still not positive if I'll be attending. If I go, I get to see all of the best bands over one weekend, but I have no place to reside from Friday-Sunday -- in other words, I'll be living on the streets of the Asbury Park area, which is much like Hempstead, meaning that I'll be shot and/or raped. I'm looking forward to it, really. Hmm.. I went tanning like 93048 times.. I'm pretty dark now. I have free tans left, and I think I'm going to use them today. I saw Denby in the hall just now, she went tanning too. I've never seen a person so burned from anything in my entire life. I felt so bad. ..and now I'll just post about yesterday in a few words, because I'm beginning to get really lazy. - school - corner - taco bell - pet store - homework see how exciting that is? not. Okay, so that was the weekly post that you were probably all waiting for. Enjoy.

9 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe in the name of tradition.. [09 Apr 2004|12:51am] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | Twista - Overnight Celebrity ] As many of you know, I have a little Spring Break tradition. I was a good friend of Kristen Kraff's during my sophmore year, and we decided since nothing was going on, we would drink during every night of Spring Break.. almost like a religious event for ourselves. We'd party in the field by Locust St; nights of frisbee, beer-bq's, picnics.. you name it, we did it. Junior year we continued this tradition with Kristen's many parties, playing "Never have I Ever..", "Thumper", and "Circle of Death." Every night (that I can remember) had its own little theme, and its own special spot in my heart. After going two consecutive Spring Breaks drunk off my ass, there was no way I could give up with my last year of high school. Long story short, I'm on night 6 right now. That's the main reason I haven't been posting in here alot, I havent had enough time. So.. I just felt the need to post this in hopes that Kristen will read it and remember our many good times together, as my first ever drinking buddy. I miss you Kristen, I love you! Night 1 was held in town. ..as were nights 2 and 3. ..and 4. Night 5 was spent in Brooklyn with Monika and Raquel. Yep, definately drank an entire bottle of red wine, and a quarter of a bottle of Absolut. Most fun I've had in quite awhile. Night 6 was held in the bar. Night 7 at the bar tomorrow. Night 8 will probably be there too. I only have 5 days left, wish me luck. Anyway, in other news.. today was an umm.. interesting day. I'd love to post all about it, but I think people would have some insane comments to post. Just put it this way.. town.. 2 people.. lots of fun. Then out with Laura.. drove around.. got retarded.. went to Jericho Diner.. our usual nights when Laura is home. She got into CW Post, so she's going to be around next year.. I missed her so much! <3 laurlaur That is all for now. Can't really type anymore, peeeace.

13 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe [04 Apr 2004|06:56pm] [ mood | irritated ] [ music | Blindside - All Of Us ] Spring Break has been pretty decent so far. Friday night was Danielle's birthday, so we were planning to celebrate for that. The plan was to head to Tabuu/Oz to go clubbing, but I think the place was closed for renovations or something, so as usual we ended up in town. I feel bad.. it wasn't the way Danielle wanted her birthday to be, but there was nothing else to do in Garden City. She ended up going home after awhile, and I was pretty upset about some stuff that some people know about (lol) so I went home early, which was nice. Watched a little TV and went to sleep. Saturday was pretty good.. woke up around 10ish and went out to breakfast with Kristen, Katherine, and Deanna. Katherine Trum and Bryn showed up for a little while, and then headed back to Bryn's house, where they ended up getting stuck on Bryn's roof for a half an hour. That's a whole different story, you don't even want to know. Anyway, eventually we met up with Christina and Nick and hung out with them in town for the majority of the afternoon. We chilled outside Starbucks and GCP since it wasn't too cold out.. nothing too exciting. Muskat eventually ended up with us.. and we continued to do nothing. Mid-afternoon, Raquel and Nicole called.. Raquel, Nicole, Muskat and I went and picked up some Peach Schnapps to make our favorite drink (Schnopple!) and we drove around for a little while. We got back to town and hid the schnapps in the bushes, and continued once again to do absolutely nothing. I think we're the only group of people that can do basically nothing all day and have a great time. We started drinking when it got dark out.. mixed the Schnapps with 2 peach snapples and got retarded.. then took some aderol.. I was pretty wasted. Later on that night, Denby and her friends showed up. I'm sure everyone from Garden City that reads this knows about our history this past week with those girls.. .. anyway, Christina was the first to go up to Alex D. and her friends and tell them all off. Tina made her give apologies to all of us, and then we walked away for a few minutes.. until we saw Alex F. and Christina went back for round two. "You have a really pretty face, I wouldn't wanna MESS IT UP FOR YOU." . Yeah, that statement definately made my night. Christina is really good at yelling at people when you piss her off enough. We got our point across, and left it at that on a note that "it wasn't finished." Around that time, Kristen Liina and Laura had to go home, so they left and Christina, Nick and I stayed (Deanna, Katherine N., Bryn and Katherine T. went out with Chris to a party or something, and came back to town around 10-1030.. drunk.) Long story short, I ended up talking to Alex D. and the girls.. and they were being really nice to me and offering me beer and stuff, and I've come to realize that maybe they're not as bad as I really thought they were. I lost a few friends temporarily over it, but I'm sure it'll blow over whenever.. days..weeks..months.. I just hope it works out, and I hope they read this. I'm sorry, I love you girls. Anyway, I hung out with Karen and Alex across the street from town for a little while, and then they left with Anderson. Drank some more, then headed home. ..and now it's today -- Sunday. I found out that Laura, Kristen, and Christina were all annoyed with me from the night before. I tried to sort things out with them, but I guess it didn't work. I'll leave it at that, I don't have anything bad to say about any of them. Going out for a bit now, bye.

3 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe [01 Apr 2004|12:50pm] Day two with the entire Denby situation. Nobody has backed down, and from the looks of things, they don't intend to. I'm a little sick of the drama, but we've gone too far to back down now. We don't back down. It's just a little sad about all the lies being told and all the different stories I've heard in the past two days. I don't know who's lying and who's being honest. I actually don't think ANY of her friends or her are being completely honest about anything. Each of them have a different story. Anyway, posting about something other than that.. ..nothing else is honestly interesting. This has been the only thing on everybody's mind these fast few days. Friday is Danielle's birthday.. we're going to her house for cake, and then going clubbing w/ all the sophmores and Muskat. Should be good times, I've never been to Oz/Tabu before. Sunday is Katie's birthday. I don't know if we have plans for that. ..and as for Saturday? Only time will tell. :) .run.for.cover.

27 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe sorry denby. [31 Mar 2004|12:25pm] I'm sorry Alex Denby. I'm REALLY sorry my friends all hate you. Sorry that by next week you'll never have any friends again. Sorry that you sucked off a 21 year old. Sorry that your own best friends talk shit about you behind your back. Sorry you're a pathelogical liar. Sorry you fuck with my head to make me think you're a good person, when in actuality I know you're not. Sorry you tell your friends one thing, and then tell me an entirely different story to try to make me like you. Sorry you have to try so hard to make friends. Sorry you can't be as cool as any of my friends. Sorry Muskat hates you. Sorry the sophomores hate you. Sorry that you have to run after school so that we won't give you dirty looks. Sorry your mom had to come and pick you up to try to protect you. I'm REALLY sorry that you had the guts to tell Kim Sexton she was a slut, and I'm even more sorry for the future outcome that statement will bring to you. .. but the beauty of this post is that I'm really not sorry at all. I'm happy that you brought this upon yourself. I'm happy I found out the real truth, and got the real scoop on all your bullshit and lies. I'm happy for what might happen. You have some fucking nerve to call MY friends sluts, when youre off running around with a 21 year old with a girlfriend. Where is your head? Do you ever think? Do you not realize what this is doing to your reputation? We're going to make a fool out of you. What really bothers us all is the fact that you can't even come up to us and talk it out, and you can't sort out your lies and tell us one honest thing. The sad part is that you probably never will. So, Alex Denby, you've brought this upon yourself. Good luck.

4 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe girls, im sorry! [29 Mar 2004|02:02pm] [ music | Talking to Danielle and Katie ] For those of you that read my last post about Bryn and the rest of the girls, I take it all back. I was really angry when I wrote it.. and.. the post just kinda got out of control, and I'm sorry for whatever I said. I love you Brynny! Anyways.. about the weekend. Ohh.. what a weekend. Friday night was Katie's Sweet16, which was fucking redonkulous. I've never had such a good time in my life. Kristen, Laura and I started out the night with select.. uhh.. drugs. We hung out and danced around for a little while, and then Katie did her candles, which were so well-written. I really enjoyed them all, and your party was amazing, I love you Katie! Saturday was the most beautiful morning-afternoon so far this Spring. I thought I had detention early in the morning, but it turns out that I was never put on the list to serve it, so I just went home for a little while. After that, Corva called, and we hung out in town for like the entire day. I met her around 10 for breakfast which we never had, and then we waited until about noon for some random guy to buy us cigarettes. We randomly walked into Grecko and Nicole and hung out with them for a bit, and then Kristen and Deanna came too. We all sat in the back of Starbucks in the really warm sun just listening to music and talking. Even though nothing was really accomplished, it was a really amazing day. During the night our set plans got a bit foiled. We were going to crash some random freshman's party. I got the invite from Alex Denby, but she got kicked out about 15 minutes into the party because her friends tried to sneak in a bottle of Skyy with her mom home. Yes, that's right, Lauren's mother was home for an "open house" party. That has to be the stupidest thing I've ever heard.. she was obviously asking to be grounded for the rest of her natural-born life. Anyway, that party didn't work out, so all the girls and I ended up in town. Keogh was supposed to have a get-together on our behalf, but he had a dank attack and passed out, so that ruined our other plan. At that point, we all just ended up going home I think. Sunday was really unproductive. I slept most of the day because I couldnt sleep Friday night (stupid aderol). Today is Monday. School as usual.. not as warm out.. going out to smoke now.. ..bye.

10 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe ..red light, can't stop, so I spin the wheel.. [25 Mar 2004|08:32am] [ mood | emo ] [ music | Thrice - The Artist in the Ambulance ] Pretty shitty last couple of days. My so-called best friends have treated me like absolute shit for the last time. I don't know what I was thinking. All I can say is <3 corva for still being there for me. You're amazing. ..so let me explain. Tuesday - Tina and Danielle were at the mall. Danielle called me up and asked if Kristen and I were going, and I told her I'd meet them there. By the time I got there, Tina had already left, but Danielle was there with Deanna, Trum, Liina, Laura, Bryn, Kristen, etc. Kristen had told me earlier that she wasn't going to the mall because she had to see her grandma.. odd, but anyway.. Everything was fine. We were hanging out at the mall for awhile, and then we went to town when we got bored. We chilled there for maybe a half hour, when the girls had some retarded little meeting and decided to just get up and ditch Corva and I and go to Deanna's house without inviting us. Stupid bitches. Whatever though, I honestly don't care much. Well yes I do, but.. I won't be here much longer.. college is coming up, and I have to move on and grow up I guess.. I think this is just a sign. They've done this to me twice before already, and this is the last time. Fuck you all. After they left, Danielle and I just kinda hung around in the freezing cold for a little while. We met up with Denby and a few other freshman that ended up ditching me right away to go with Anderson on a bunch of deliveries, and then Muskat randomly showed up drunk off his ass on the way to some party. I don't know, it was a really sketchy night. Wednesday was a little better. I spent the afternoon with Jenny and Raquel - we went to McDonalds, and then went to the field by Locust to play frisbee and hang out for a little while (definately took advantage of the nice weather). I went home for an hour or two after that, and then went back out with Greg and Nicole to go tanning. Went BACK to McDonalds.. we were trying to gather up as many forms of cancer as we could in one day. I believe the total was 4. - cell phone radiation - smoking - tanning - McDonalds ..yep thats 4. I have nothing more to say, I just want things to go back to the way they were. I miss my best friends when they treated me like they gave a shit. I remember our after school days in town.. when we set the pile of leaves on fire.. when we'd chill at 7-11.. when they'd actually call ME once in awhile.. ..things have obviously changed.

6 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe [22 Mar 2004|04:43pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | The Juliana Theory - You Always Say Goodnight ] Oh yes, it's that time where I come to livejournal.com to give the entire world my weekend update. We will start with Friday, because that is the first night of the weekend. I suppose that would make sense. Friday was Danielle's Sweet 16 party! Definately one of the more fun nights I've had in months. The DJ was great, the food was really good, and you could tell that everybody was having an amazing time. Her candles were all really good.. especially the one about Michelle. Definately made me cry, but it was happy in a sense too knowing she would have been there if it weren't for the circumstances. Love you Chells.. Saturday was pretty cool.. I hung out with Raquel during the morning/afternoon. She took me to get my haircut, and to the mall to buy my "Versaci" 400 (14) dollar sunglasses. I had stolen Raquel's the night before at the Sweet 16 because they ended up looking really good on me. Oh, by the way, props to Raquel for making me look hot. I don't know where I'd be without her. Probably at Hollister buying XL shirts, because you know.. I'm such a fatass. Psyche. After the mall and whatnot, we stopped by Amanda's house to say hello to Anna, Amanda, and Michelle. We went to town and met up with some of the sophmores, even though I had no clue they were going to be there. Just a mere coincidence. Stayed there for about 10 minutes, then went back to Raquel's house while she showered and changed for her drunken night in the city, in which she got lots of ass. Good work Raquel. .. I got lots of ass too. Yeah, names don't go in the livejournal, just in case people get mad about it. Sunday was boring. I stayed home for the majority of the day and worked on my Music and Literature essays, and the tons of work that I owe all my teachers. I still haven't finished that. Today was just a regular school day. There was no exciting peak or anything. ..maybe something cool will happen tonight.. .. maybe not.

23 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe [19 Mar 2004|01:57pm] [ music | Sitting next to Kristen Bock. She hates me. ] The snow finally stopped, thank God. I'm sure I probably just jinxed it, and now it's going to snow again. My bad. Danielle's Sweet 16 party is tonight. I'm really excited. Tina's was so much fun, and this should be pretty damn good too. As far as I know, it's at Paparazzi. I don't think I spelled that right. I still need to go on a job hunt. I feel really bad going to all these parties and not bringing anything. I hope they all know that I love them and I plan to get them all presents when I have more than 5 dollars a day. Anna is hot. Random thought. This weekend I have lots of Lit and Environ homework to do, and I really am just not motivated to do it. Unfortunately, as many of you know, I'm never motivated to do anything.. ever in my life, so it needs to get done eventually -- might as well do it this weekend. However, there is more than that on my things to do list. 1. Drink Alcohol. 2. Get ass. 3. Have fun at Danielle's. 4. ..then comes the essays. 5. Have a normal night of sleep. ..and now I'm finished, I just felt like updating. I had a little free time to kill.

4 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe [18 Mar 2004|12:34pm] [ music | Straylight Run - Existentialism on Prom Night ] Yep, never been so exhausted in my life. They actually made me work in Gym, it's not fair. ..in Business Law now, nothing is going on, as usual. It's a fun class though. Tomorrow is Corva's Sweet 16. I'm really excited. She was telling me about her canoli-filled cake and now I wanna go even more. Her music is good too. I'm definately just rambling on and on. I have nothing else to do. Hipworth's Sweet 16 is coming up too, I have to shop for her. ..actually, I owe Liina, Laura, and Tina all gifts. I really need to get a decent job, but I don't have one set up until the summer. Anyone up for spending a day in the mall with me for a job hunting session? You all want to, don't lie.

3 pushed øut // faKe a smiLe freshman love me. [17 Mar 2004|08:34am] [ music | Brand New - Jude Law and a Semester Abroad ] The subject of this post explains itself. There's a certain person that will currently remain nameless that wants me, and shouldnt have me for umm.. good reasons. Deanna and Kristen know what I'm talking about. Anna does too. They IMed me online and me they were uhh.. wanting to call me.. for things.. I should just really end this post right there, because I can't actually type that on my livejournal without potentially ruining the person's life. Just IM me and odds are I'll tell you what happened. I saved the entire conversation. In other news, my economics teacher is giving me a 95 average, even though I'm missing 4 reports and haven't done a single homework. I got a 78 on the test too. I don't understand how I can possibly be receiving a 95 for a current grade, but it'll definately please mother. I miss Michelle. I was just looking at pictures I had of her in my binder. It's still not easy. It never will be. I want my concert buddy back. I'm going to go nap. I'm too confused and frustrated to write further.

.n.a.v.i.g.a.t.i.o.n. [ viewing | most recent entries ] [ go | fall back ]